Ch-120

"Reggie, eat this for today," Esther said as she removed the plate which was in front of Reggie, making him elated.

She placed Reggie's plate in front of Cyrus, asking him to eat with a smirk on her face. Esther felt Cyrus couldn't eat greens because from what she heard from Reggie that he never said ate greens. That only means he doesn't like them. He doesn't eat but makes her and her son eat they can't. So… she will get revenge for themselves.

"I can eat anything, Miss. Benjamin. I lived in a place that was not even suitable for living for a year. I gathered food alone and there were situations where I had to live by eating grass. I can eat this." Cyrus said to her with a smug look as she searched for the element of shock in her face.

"I see," she said and bowed her head to eat. Esther was surprised, but on second thought, he was a royal. They have to go through a lot of things to become the perfect ruler of their empire. So… it's not that shocking. Even Henry went through a lot of things. If there was something that he learned was… value of life. Because if they go on a war or something that risks the life of him and others as a soon-to-be king or ruler they have to protect their lives along with other's lives.

But there were 'royals' like Gracia's who didn't even have these kinds of things in their family. The 'kings' or 'lords' from Garcia's have no actual ability. The word Mistress was some real gene that flows in their veins. If someone checks the history of them, they always had a mistress. If one goes back to the chart of their family history, one could find it. Also… they have no actual skill to support the family. They always depend on the female they marry or married to. As Esther thought about what, she smiled mockingly at herself. The family she was married into was not that good or that capable. They leeched off her and she let them leech off her. And she even named it love. Why was she so stupid? Esther didn't move her cutlery as she thought about these things. She didn't even notice that Cyrus heard her thoughts making him smile.

He didn't think Esther would sort out things this early. In her last life, they only got to spend their time for only three years. But now, he won't let the chance go. It's good that she was willing to compare both of them and think of the things she did or happened to her.

"Miss. Benjamin….." Cyrus called her, waking her from her stupor.

"Yes?" she said as she looked dazedly at him.

"Eat. What are you thinking?" Cyrus asked.

"Just this and that. Comparing present and past." Esther said, without realizing her words.

"What is the use of comparing? There was time… for me too… I lost my two family members. That was an immense blow to me. My sister, elders, family, and my cousins tried everything to make me feel at ease. But I was a madman. Everyone thought I was hopeless. My sister came and used extreme methods to make me realize I was a fool. Past, future, and the deaths and births aren't in our hands. We can only control our present and enjoy them." Cyrus said as he looked into her eyes as he fed her a piece of chicken.

"The past, present, and future... Our birth and death… They are not in our control, but what if we messed our present with our stupidity and fall in love with the wrong person? Don't you think this is miserable?" Esther said. She feels hurt for doing everything in vain. Even after she was dead, he still loved her. She watched him grieve over her death with her by his side. He brought the son of her who doesn't belong to him by blood. She saw him shower the kid with love, but what about her? Esther avenged him for all the things he did to her, but what about her emotional damage? She wanted to ask Arthur why he did that to her, but she knew if she asked him it would be like she was begging him and still didn't get over him. That was why she let him go. She realized her love turned into hate, but still again, she loved Reggie. If it's a normal person, they would hate the kid forever. But Esther didn't because she knew the kid was innocent. And he was the only relief she got in her married life.

"Miss. Benjamin… The saddest thing in this nature is…. Love cannot be determined. Just like the love between the sky and earth. They never meet but show their love to each other. The sky sheds tears when the earth is dried by the scorching sun. With the help of tears, the earth gives birth to new saplings and creates a pleasant environment to hide its wet soil from the sight of the sky." Cyrus said as he gazed into her eyes.

"The worst part of love is… Watching your loved one's loving some other person. We try to steal their heart and make them love you back. This kind of love which involves three people will hurt the three of them. But it would leave two people happy in the end by healing each other's broken hearts. But there are some other cases where the three people go their ways. Those people will have it hard to fall in love. They will think stupid themselves. But they don't realize that they are excellent lovers, it's just that we do not appreciate their efforts. They don't give a chance to themselves or the surrounding people who are waiting for them."

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Author's Notes:

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Well... Do you think Esther would change her mind?